I like politics. I do. I find the whole thing fascinating, and I am very interested in the leadership of our country, state, and city. But I'm about over this election. I don't want to see any more glossy ads asking if I "know what Todd Akin has said now." I'm sure it is offensive. But if people are still voting for that guy, they obviously don't care what he says. Maybe if he burned a flag or offered to raise taxes on billionaires--that might get their attention. Another round of sexist statements just means it's Tuesday.
I watched the debate last night and felt as unconnected to both candidates as I ever have. Both went on and on about how strong the military would be under their leadership. Both went on and on about being "tough on Iran." They'll also be tough on China, the country we love to hate, whose exports keep Walmart in business. We all hate the trade imbalance with China. Most of us have homes full of Chinese products.
I am over the hypocrisy. I am over the decidedly unChristian values on display from people who profess deep faith in Jesus. And I am over the coarseness of our rhetoric, especially as it pertains to the president of the United States.
Last night after the debate, super-conservative talking person Ann Coulter tweeted, "I highly approve of Romney's decision to be kind and gentle to the retard."
I hesitate to quote that directly, because the final word is highly offensive. It's a playground word, one that schools are symbolically burying in order to help kids remember not to say it. And little kids are learning. Perhaps someday Ann Coulter will attain the enlightened perspective of a typical second grader.
You cannot say that about anyone. You must not say that about the President of the United States. There is still a certain level of decorum and respect owed to the highest office in this land. If you want to claim any gravitas in speaking about who should be the next president, you might try according a little dignity to the current one.
And if you're going to insult him, at least pick something that makes sense. The president's high level of intelligence is undisputed. Even people who don't like him grudgingly admit that he is smart. So along with being a terrible insult to people who struggle with mental and learning disabilities--a word that second graders have learned not to say--your comment was ridiculous. It was a word meant to offend, one which you just grabbed out of your bag of "words no one should say." The same way the schoolyard bully calls a kid "gay," even though the child's sexuality isn't in question.
I was already over Ann Coulter. But I think I'll be glad when November Seventh gets here. Then I can generally avoid being offended if I stay away from The Learning Channel and Fox News. Assuming we all vote based on actual research, and not things we see in glossy advertisements or read on Twitter, or Facebook, or somebody's blog.
PeacePastor
Lord, keep us steadfast in your Word. --Martin Luther
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
What's That About?
Saw this bumper sticker the other day. As I drove past the car, I exclaimed, loudly, "For God's sake!" Which was rather ironic, I suppose.
I searched the interwebs and read a few explanations about this bumper sticker. There was a whole conversation on the Austin, Texas Yelp site, which had the flavor of most anonymous internet conversations:
Lovely Lady: I saw this bumper sticker the other day and wondered what it meant.
Wish it was Friday: I was wondering that, too.
Big Dog: I did an extensive search on Google. There was a lot of BS, but I found this: "This sticker originated at blah blah munitions company and they are praying for the safety of our snipers. Those snipers save lots of lives, since they can make surgical strikes."
Fabulous Frank: That sticker is not very Austin-y. Give peace a chance, y'all.
Lovely Lady: Oh, thanks. I googled too and didn't find a good answer. You rock, Big Dog!
Big Dog: Frank, that's the problem with Austin. We don't allow alternate opinions.
Barry the Welder: Frank, you are an idiot!
Fabulous Frank: I was being ironic.
It goes on. I changed the excellent screen monikers and paraphrased the dialogue, but that captures it pretty well. There was much more, but I didn't feel like reading to the point where the conversation devolved to pre-verbal grunting. I no longer read the "Unfettered Letters" section of the Kansas City Star website, because it is simply a depository for hateful discourse, with the occasional salient comment. I'm not willing to sort through that much poop hoping for a pony. There seem to be people with a lot of time on their hands these days--a lot of time, and not much love in their hearts, or at least in their fingertips, which is the problem here, exactly.
We have a multiplicity of opportunities for coarse discourse at our fingertips, and on our bumpers. I'm not sure what motivates someone to put a bumper sticker on their car that says "God bless our troops...especially our SNIPERS!" I do know that it is not a benevolent wish for the protection of American soldiers and marines who happen to be snipers. The punctuation makes that abundantly clear. This is a "prayer" for those who locate and destroy our "enemies" with precision. It is a prayer for killing. One could support it with a biblical argument, but not a gospel argument. Yeah, I'm Lutheran--I get to make that distinction. Thanks, Martin Luther!
I do have a few theories on what the motivation for this sort of hateful discourse might be:
Theory #1: We really do believe that an American life has more value than an Afghan life, or a Pakistani life, or the life of anyone else who might be found in the crosshairs of a sniper's rifle.
Theory #2: We no longer feel that anyone truly listens to what we say. So we say it in such a way that it cannot be avoided. We speak in sweeping generalizations, in shocking language, in profanity--in much the same way that a six-year-old will smack another child just to get attention. We'll take the negative if we can't get the positive.
Theory #3: We are becoming an increasingly polarized people who turn to hateful discourse out of anger at our lack of power, or perceived lack of power.
It could be any of those, or something else. It's likely a hybrid of all three, added to the convenience of sharing our thoughts anonymously, semi-anonymously, or at least at a distance, on so many digital formats these days. Like this blog, for instance.
So we have a problem and it is perhaps merely attributable to sin and therefore a part of the human condition, but I'm inclined to think there is a solution. First we have to ask a few questions. I would pose these:
-->How do we recover peace in our discourse?
-->How do we learn to speak out of love and not anger?
-->And when anger is unavoidable--when there are children going hungry in a prosperous country (or any country, for that matter), when American soldiers and marines are dying for reasons that seem abstract or fictitious, when the gap between rich and poor passes "obscene" and heads for "absurd"--when injustice is the order of the day, and we are obligated by faith and/or reason to speak out, how do we do so in a way that doesn't alienate those who really need to hear our message?
I am increasingly convinced that we need to stop and answer those questions, before we're going to solve much else.
I searched the interwebs and read a few explanations about this bumper sticker. There was a whole conversation on the Austin, Texas Yelp site, which had the flavor of most anonymous internet conversations:
Lovely Lady: I saw this bumper sticker the other day and wondered what it meant.
Wish it was Friday: I was wondering that, too.
Big Dog: I did an extensive search on Google. There was a lot of BS, but I found this: "This sticker originated at blah blah munitions company and they are praying for the safety of our snipers. Those snipers save lots of lives, since they can make surgical strikes."
Fabulous Frank: That sticker is not very Austin-y. Give peace a chance, y'all.
Lovely Lady: Oh, thanks. I googled too and didn't find a good answer. You rock, Big Dog!
Big Dog: Frank, that's the problem with Austin. We don't allow alternate opinions.
Barry the Welder: Frank, you are an idiot!
Fabulous Frank: I was being ironic.
It goes on. I changed the excellent screen monikers and paraphrased the dialogue, but that captures it pretty well. There was much more, but I didn't feel like reading to the point where the conversation devolved to pre-verbal grunting. I no longer read the "Unfettered Letters" section of the Kansas City Star website, because it is simply a depository for hateful discourse, with the occasional salient comment. I'm not willing to sort through that much poop hoping for a pony. There seem to be people with a lot of time on their hands these days--a lot of time, and not much love in their hearts, or at least in their fingertips, which is the problem here, exactly.
We have a multiplicity of opportunities for coarse discourse at our fingertips, and on our bumpers. I'm not sure what motivates someone to put a bumper sticker on their car that says "God bless our troops...especially our SNIPERS!" I do know that it is not a benevolent wish for the protection of American soldiers and marines who happen to be snipers. The punctuation makes that abundantly clear. This is a "prayer" for those who locate and destroy our "enemies" with precision. It is a prayer for killing. One could support it with a biblical argument, but not a gospel argument. Yeah, I'm Lutheran--I get to make that distinction. Thanks, Martin Luther!
I do have a few theories on what the motivation for this sort of hateful discourse might be:
Theory #1: We really do believe that an American life has more value than an Afghan life, or a Pakistani life, or the life of anyone else who might be found in the crosshairs of a sniper's rifle.
Theory #2: We no longer feel that anyone truly listens to what we say. So we say it in such a way that it cannot be avoided. We speak in sweeping generalizations, in shocking language, in profanity--in much the same way that a six-year-old will smack another child just to get attention. We'll take the negative if we can't get the positive.
Theory #3: We are becoming an increasingly polarized people who turn to hateful discourse out of anger at our lack of power, or perceived lack of power.
It could be any of those, or something else. It's likely a hybrid of all three, added to the convenience of sharing our thoughts anonymously, semi-anonymously, or at least at a distance, on so many digital formats these days. Like this blog, for instance.
So we have a problem and it is perhaps merely attributable to sin and therefore a part of the human condition, but I'm inclined to think there is a solution. First we have to ask a few questions. I would pose these:
-->How do we recover peace in our discourse?
-->How do we learn to speak out of love and not anger?
-->And when anger is unavoidable--when there are children going hungry in a prosperous country (or any country, for that matter), when American soldiers and marines are dying for reasons that seem abstract or fictitious, when the gap between rich and poor passes "obscene" and heads for "absurd"--when injustice is the order of the day, and we are obligated by faith and/or reason to speak out, how do we do so in a way that doesn't alienate those who really need to hear our message?
I am increasingly convinced that we need to stop and answer those questions, before we're going to solve much else.
Friday, September 07, 2012
A Briefly Curved-in Jesus
I actually wrote an hour-long presentation under that name, which began with the story of a Gentile woman and Jesus, found in Mark 7 and Matthew 15. The idea was to talk about welcome in our churches, specifically welcome of LGBTQ folks. I spent a really long time talking about the passage, though, which is, for me, the most challenging text in the gospels.
In case you don't know the story, here's the brief recap: Jesus is traveling up in Tyre, a big coastal region on the Mediterranean. He goes into a house for a little quiet, but he can't get it; a woman follows him in. She has a daughter with a demon, and she begs Jesus to cast it out. Important detail: "Now the woman was a Gentile, of Syrophoenician origin." (In Matthew she is called a "Canaanite woman," which doesn't change the meaning.) At first, Jesus refuses to help her, saying “Let the children be fed first, for it is not fair to take the children’s food and throw it to the dogs.” She responds that even the dogs get to eat the crumbs on the floor.
There are so many things to say about this story. There are so many ways to feel about this story. There are dozens of ways of reinterpreting the story to save Jesus from his humanness. I've read them. Here's one: the word isn't really "dogs;" it's something more akin to "puppies." I guess it's a little better to be called a "puppy" than a "dog." I guess.
So here's what I'm thinking this morning, because I am postmodern enough to know that the space in which I read affects the text: Jesus is human. We proclaim that in the Creeds, and we talk about it at Christmastime especially (since our Lord being a "baby" is a little easier to take than him being a "man"). God became flesh and dwelt among us and every once in a while that fleshy human being did or said something dumb.
He wanted to be alone. He was tired, having been followed through hill and vale and wilderness and lakeshore and into houses and up mountains. He wanted a moment and he didn't get it and so he whined. A moment of selfishness. Been there. Ooh, I have been there. A few minutes ago, in fact.
It's a rare moment, and serves as the exception that proves a rule about Jesus, which is that he is not so selfish. When the disciples wanted to send away the great hordes who followed Jesus so that they could all get something to eat, Jesus caused food to appear for all of them. Then he got in a boat and crossed the lake, where people commenced to bring all of the sick people to him to be healed.
He healed them, because that's what he did. He healed everyone who came, and he preached when he was weary to the bone. He was Jesus, and that's what Jesus did. He healed the sick and he proclaimed the kingdom and when he had given away his power and his voice, he laid down his life.
He did have a moment, up in Tyre--a very human moment, the sort of moment that people like me have all of the time. He had a moment and then he bounced out of it and cured a Syrophoenician woman's daughter and doggone it, that's a really good lesson for all of us who give in to the tendency to be what the reformers referred to as incurvatus in se. That phrase, attributed first to St. Augustine and used by Luther in his commentary on Romans, refers to the human tendency to be "curved in on ourselves," instead of out toward God and our neighbors. For Augustine, it was a sign of original sin; for Luther, it spoke of our need for God's grace (no, those are not mutually exclusive--very good!).
It is so easy to turn in on ourselves. It's easy for our needs to overtake the world's. It's so easy to feel as if our troubles are insurmountable. It's easy to check out, to crawl into a dark hole of despair and dare our friends and family to pull us out. Sometimes we need that help, because our despair is chemically induced, and we simply can't manage it.
And sometimes we need to follow Jesus. Wait...always we need to follow Jesus. Sometimes we need to follow his example of being incurvatus ex se--curved out from ourselves and toward God and neighbor...even when we're not feeling it. It might even wrench us away from the tendency to see our troubles as insurmountable, which they rarely are.
In case you don't know the story, here's the brief recap: Jesus is traveling up in Tyre, a big coastal region on the Mediterranean. He goes into a house for a little quiet, but he can't get it; a woman follows him in. She has a daughter with a demon, and she begs Jesus to cast it out. Important detail: "Now the woman was a Gentile, of Syrophoenician origin." (In Matthew she is called a "Canaanite woman," which doesn't change the meaning.) At first, Jesus refuses to help her, saying “Let the children be fed first, for it is not fair to take the children’s food and throw it to the dogs.” She responds that even the dogs get to eat the crumbs on the floor.
There are so many things to say about this story. There are so many ways to feel about this story. There are dozens of ways of reinterpreting the story to save Jesus from his humanness. I've read them. Here's one: the word isn't really "dogs;" it's something more akin to "puppies." I guess it's a little better to be called a "puppy" than a "dog." I guess.
So here's what I'm thinking this morning, because I am postmodern enough to know that the space in which I read affects the text: Jesus is human. We proclaim that in the Creeds, and we talk about it at Christmastime especially (since our Lord being a "baby" is a little easier to take than him being a "man"). God became flesh and dwelt among us and every once in a while that fleshy human being did or said something dumb.
He wanted to be alone. He was tired, having been followed through hill and vale and wilderness and lakeshore and into houses and up mountains. He wanted a moment and he didn't get it and so he whined. A moment of selfishness. Been there. Ooh, I have been there. A few minutes ago, in fact.
It's a rare moment, and serves as the exception that proves a rule about Jesus, which is that he is not so selfish. When the disciples wanted to send away the great hordes who followed Jesus so that they could all get something to eat, Jesus caused food to appear for all of them. Then he got in a boat and crossed the lake, where people commenced to bring all of the sick people to him to be healed.
He healed them, because that's what he did. He healed everyone who came, and he preached when he was weary to the bone. He was Jesus, and that's what Jesus did. He healed the sick and he proclaimed the kingdom and when he had given away his power and his voice, he laid down his life.
He did have a moment, up in Tyre--a very human moment, the sort of moment that people like me have all of the time. He had a moment and then he bounced out of it and cured a Syrophoenician woman's daughter and doggone it, that's a really good lesson for all of us who give in to the tendency to be what the reformers referred to as incurvatus in se. That phrase, attributed first to St. Augustine and used by Luther in his commentary on Romans, refers to the human tendency to be "curved in on ourselves," instead of out toward God and our neighbors. For Augustine, it was a sign of original sin; for Luther, it spoke of our need for God's grace (no, those are not mutually exclusive--very good!).
It is so easy to turn in on ourselves. It's easy for our needs to overtake the world's. It's so easy to feel as if our troubles are insurmountable. It's easy to check out, to crawl into a dark hole of despair and dare our friends and family to pull us out. Sometimes we need that help, because our despair is chemically induced, and we simply can't manage it.
And sometimes we need to follow Jesus. Wait...always we need to follow Jesus. Sometimes we need to follow his example of being incurvatus ex se--curved out from ourselves and toward God and neighbor...even when we're not feeling it. It might even wrench us away from the tendency to see our troubles as insurmountable, which they rarely are.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
I Coined a Word!
When I writes, I pours.
In the course of attending to my blog today, I found that I had five comments awaiting moderation. One of them was on a post called "How about 'Sortadox'?" in which I was complaining about the need for a name for the folks in between the Pope and Christopher Hitchens. David Brooks had used the term "quasi-religious" to describe the folks in between; that term is quasi-awful. So I suggested "sortadox." And a commenter, one jules the bassist, wrote to say that s/he had Googled "sortadox," and my blog was the first thing that came up.
I just did it, and its still true. How fun.
In the course of attending to my blog today, I found that I had five comments awaiting moderation. One of them was on a post called "How about 'Sortadox'?" in which I was complaining about the need for a name for the folks in between the Pope and Christopher Hitchens. David Brooks had used the term "quasi-religious" to describe the folks in between; that term is quasi-awful. So I suggested "sortadox." And a commenter, one jules the bassist, wrote to say that s/he had Googled "sortadox," and my blog was the first thing that came up.
I just did it, and its still true. How fun.
Hope and Peace Pastor
So a few things have happened over the past two years--since I last posted on this poor neglected blog. I'm thinking it's time to fix that...though I've thought that before...
Abiding Peace merged with St. Mark, which already had members from Fountain of Hope, so now we are St. Mark Hope and Peace Lutheran Church. Yes, it's a long name. We're part of the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, which has fewer words but many more syllables. We kept it to monosyllables as best we could. So do pronounce the "Hope and Peace."
The world needs more hope and peace. There is a ferocious cynicism in our public discourse. Russ Douthat's recent column "Can Liberal Christianity Be Saved?" is a good case-in-point. Douthat is a conservative, so one would expect him to be critical of "liberal Christianity," by which he means whole denominations like the Episcopal Church (United States) and most certainly the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, my denominational home. We are fair game, of course, having both (Episcopalians and ELCA Lutherans) made some progressive moves in the past few years, most notably on the issue of gay clergy and same gender unions.
But Douthat is way over the top in declaring that the Episcopal Church has become "flexible to the point of indifference on dogma, friendly to sexual liberation in almost every form, willing to blend Christianity with other faiths, and eager to downplay theology entirely in favor of secular political causes." That link will take you to a column in Christianity Today (which describes itself as "a globally minded evangelical magazine"). The article is about concern about Episcopal syncretism, which Christianity Today apparently defines as openness to the possibility of salvation through means other than adherence to Christian doctrine and dogma.
Read Douthat's column. He makes some interesting points at the end, about losing our grounding. I'm not prepared to argue with him on that one, though he overstates once again. The civil rights movement was able to proclaim Christ while demanding social change. It's harder to do that today, when that declaration is often considered quaint. Then read Diana Butler Bass's book Christianity for the Rest of Us, which describes mainline Christian congregations which are thriving, and are also rooted in some traditional practices and a clear understanding of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Read them all today--you'll thank me.
Abiding Peace merged with St. Mark, which already had members from Fountain of Hope, so now we are St. Mark Hope and Peace Lutheran Church. Yes, it's a long name. We're part of the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, which has fewer words but many more syllables. We kept it to monosyllables as best we could. So do pronounce the "Hope and Peace."
The world needs more hope and peace. There is a ferocious cynicism in our public discourse. Russ Douthat's recent column "Can Liberal Christianity Be Saved?" is a good case-in-point. Douthat is a conservative, so one would expect him to be critical of "liberal Christianity," by which he means whole denominations like the Episcopal Church (United States) and most certainly the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, my denominational home. We are fair game, of course, having both (Episcopalians and ELCA Lutherans) made some progressive moves in the past few years, most notably on the issue of gay clergy and same gender unions.
But Douthat is way over the top in declaring that the Episcopal Church has become "flexible to the point of indifference on dogma, friendly to sexual liberation in almost every form, willing to blend Christianity with other faiths, and eager to downplay theology entirely in favor of secular political causes." That link will take you to a column in Christianity Today (which describes itself as "a globally minded evangelical magazine"). The article is about concern about Episcopal syncretism, which Christianity Today apparently defines as openness to the possibility of salvation through means other than adherence to Christian doctrine and dogma.
Read Douthat's column. He makes some interesting points at the end, about losing our grounding. I'm not prepared to argue with him on that one, though he overstates once again. The civil rights movement was able to proclaim Christ while demanding social change. It's harder to do that today, when that declaration is often considered quaint. Then read Diana Butler Bass's book Christianity for the Rest of Us, which describes mainline Christian congregations which are thriving, and are also rooted in some traditional practices and a clear understanding of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Read them all today--you'll thank me.
You might also enjoy the response of Episcopal Rector Matthew Lawrence, provocatively titled "Russ Douthat Is a Fruit Fly." He links a great response that Butler Bass has provided. Go to his to get to hers. That's the way this thing works.
Hope! Peace!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Writing Something
My blog needs updating. My girlfriend told me, and I know she's right, not that I received her right-ness with appropriate grace and gratitude.
So I do need to write something and maybe I'll write about writing. Specifically that we ought to all be doing more of it, since it's really suffering. I love all the great social media out there, and texting, and the other opportunities creeping up--opportunities to mangle the English language and send grammar to an early grave. Really I do.
But I had to give up Twitter, since 140 characters means writing "u" when you mean "you." And using numbers as words. I've tried it out when texting (since you only get 160 there). Doesn't really work for me.
I think we should all try our hands at formal writing, by which I mean writing that uses letters only. If you need to write about numbers over ten, then you can use numerals. But otherwise, letters. And complete sentences, though they can be fragments, if you know what you're doing. Seriously. Fragments are an appropriate way to indicate emphasis. Really. They are not not not an appropriate way to communicate generally in written discourse.
So that's what I think. I think we should all write more. Except for Ann Coulter and Jonah Goldberg. They should write less. Maybe just on Twitter.
So I do need to write something and maybe I'll write about writing. Specifically that we ought to all be doing more of it, since it's really suffering. I love all the great social media out there, and texting, and the other opportunities creeping up--opportunities to mangle the English language and send grammar to an early grave. Really I do.
But I had to give up Twitter, since 140 characters means writing "u" when you mean "you." And using numbers as words. I've tried it out when texting (since you only get 160 there). Doesn't really work for me.
I think we should all try our hands at formal writing, by which I mean writing that uses letters only. If you need to write about numbers over ten, then you can use numerals. But otherwise, letters. And complete sentences, though they can be fragments, if you know what you're doing. Seriously. Fragments are an appropriate way to indicate emphasis. Really. They are not not not an appropriate way to communicate generally in written discourse.
So that's what I think. I think we should all write more. Except for Ann Coulter and Jonah Goldberg. They should write less. Maybe just on Twitter.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
The Joy of Candidacy, Part Three
I am a candidate for ordained ministry again. It's an odd place to be, since I've been an ordained minister for nearly a decade.
But the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America has declared itself open to receiving lesbian and gay candidates in Publicly Accountable, Lifelong, Mutual Same-gender relationships (PALMS) on its roster, so I am a candidate once again.
Which means going through candidacy again. For the third time.
Yay.
The first two times weren't bad, really. I had a really terrific candidacy team in the Sierra-Pacific Synod (the northern halves of California and Nevada). They wanted me to be approved, even to the point of tacitly encouraging me to bend the truth in order to do so. And they were loving and kind when I stubbornly refused to play the "I'm in compliance right now (here in this office)" game. ("Now available from Hasbro! Hasbro, for all of your integrity-compromising needs.")
The second trip through candidacy was with the Extraordinary Candidacy Project, which accepted all of my ELCA paperwork (and kept copies of it all, which has turned out to be a Godsend). I also had to write an essay about how my sexuality would influence my ministry, which felt like one of those "you need to do something special for us so here it is" requirements. But I wrote it and I'm sure I'll come across it any time now and enjoy reading it again. Or laugh. Laughing is a distinct possibility.
ECP is now Extraordinary Lutheran Ministries, and it will always be my primary home. Were it not for the pioneers of this movement, dozens of us would have been left out in the cold, like so many of our sisters and brothers in other denominations. I am proud to be "extraordinarily ordained," and grateful as hell to all those who worked so hard to pry open the doors to ministry.
The ELCA's doors are sort of open now, though I am not steeled for bureaucracy as I should be, having been sheltered by ECP-then-ELM all of these years. The institutional church is a whole different animal.
Case in point: Since it has been (just) over ten years since I was postponed by an ELCA candidacy committee, it appears that the Synod has shredded my paperwork. They can't find my file, and think it has been "disposed."
Ouch. Since I was postponed, I assumed that they would hold my file open. Or at least check in before chucking it.
First rule of interfacing with bureaucratic institutions: Never assume.
ELM, my one true love, has my paperwork. Most of it, anyway. They kept it in a fireproof vault, and have already sent a copy to my new Synod. I'm searching through old floppy disks for my approval essays. Have found two of the four. I think the other two are on the hard drive of the office computer at my internship site. A computer which has surely been discarded long ago.
So the search for hard copies commences.
But the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America has declared itself open to receiving lesbian and gay candidates in Publicly Accountable, Lifelong, Mutual Same-gender relationships (PALMS) on its roster, so I am a candidate once again.
Which means going through candidacy again. For the third time.
Yay.
The first two times weren't bad, really. I had a really terrific candidacy team in the Sierra-Pacific Synod (the northern halves of California and Nevada). They wanted me to be approved, even to the point of tacitly encouraging me to bend the truth in order to do so. And they were loving and kind when I stubbornly refused to play the "I'm in compliance right now (here in this office)" game. ("Now available from Hasbro! Hasbro, for all of your integrity-compromising needs.")
The second trip through candidacy was with the Extraordinary Candidacy Project, which accepted all of my ELCA paperwork (and kept copies of it all, which has turned out to be a Godsend). I also had to write an essay about how my sexuality would influence my ministry, which felt like one of those "you need to do something special for us so here it is" requirements. But I wrote it and I'm sure I'll come across it any time now and enjoy reading it again. Or laugh. Laughing is a distinct possibility.
ECP is now Extraordinary Lutheran Ministries, and it will always be my primary home. Were it not for the pioneers of this movement, dozens of us would have been left out in the cold, like so many of our sisters and brothers in other denominations. I am proud to be "extraordinarily ordained," and grateful as hell to all those who worked so hard to pry open the doors to ministry.
The ELCA's doors are sort of open now, though I am not steeled for bureaucracy as I should be, having been sheltered by ECP-then-ELM all of these years. The institutional church is a whole different animal.
Case in point: Since it has been (just) over ten years since I was postponed by an ELCA candidacy committee, it appears that the Synod has shredded my paperwork. They can't find my file, and think it has been "disposed."
Ouch. Since I was postponed, I assumed that they would hold my file open. Or at least check in before chucking it.
First rule of interfacing with bureaucratic institutions: Never assume.
ELM, my one true love, has my paperwork. Most of it, anyway. They kept it in a fireproof vault, and have already sent a copy to my new Synod. I'm searching through old floppy disks for my approval essays. Have found two of the four. I think the other two are on the hard drive of the office computer at my internship site. A computer which has surely been discarded long ago.
So the search for hard copies commences.
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